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BLESSING or Not? ____________________________________________________ Today I went for interview, for a project of web-designing. This is the first time I am going to do it commercially. When I was on my way home from that office, I was thinking if it is a blessing? Probably God knew that I am not going to give up on designing, hence he gave me this chance. Maybe He pampers me and knows where my passion lies, that's why he provided this opportunity.
Then I start getting upset. Because I haven gotten my VIP yet!! So sad. What I really needed now is a VIP!! All the companies had yet to reply me. This is so sad... ): . . Maybe it ain't a blessing after all. I was at my bus stop waiting for bus, I saw a fat girl throwing tantrum at her boyfriend. She not only fat, but ugly. She looks fatter and uglier than SandyL. I am not against fat girls or ugly girls or fat and ugly girls. You guys should know that when I say fat, it's really fat and ugly is really ugly. I was disgusted by her action, or the whole package. The way she throw tantrum is gross, in the sense that she so fat and ugly, she can attitude her boyfriend. It's not whinny kind, but attitude. But her bf is still so loving towards her. I felt that she's so blessed, while her boyfriend, err ~~hum ~~~.... BTW her bf is alright looking. Which reminds me what happen a few days ago. I met my first major crush. He spoke to me, we had small talk. This is the longest talk we had in 4 years. We had became somewhat like hi-bye friends for the last 2 years, cos I see him in school mah. He felt so different. So different from last time. He had became gentle. Very gentle. He is the most gentle guy I had met. He is more gentle than Elliot (MR nice guy in CE), and even Kevin Chia Ting Feng (but Kevin's gentleness makes me want to snap him). His gentleness is really gentle and my feelings start to waver again. I believed I had gotten over him, from the first few times I saw him in NUS, and that was years ago. Now heart starts to flutter again. He is very different from last time. All his characteristic which I used to like are no longer there. Those are the characteristic that made me got over him. Those are the ones that convince me he is not the one. Now that he has changed, changed to the caring sort that I like. Why is this happening? Is this a blessing? I guess I would feel something. After all, he's my first major crush that lasted for soo sooo many years. But I won't be seeing him around in school, I dun think the crush will relight too. ;). Blessing or NOT? |
