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AH GONG zhai ____________________________________________________ There is always the mummy's boy, daddy's girl. Well, I am slightly different. I realised it today that I am actually ah gong's girl. I am rather dependent on him, especially during the earlier part of the growing up years (now is the growing old years, haizz). I used to think that I am that kind that papa zhai (like jan refers to KT and Merv), but I am wrong. I am Ah gong zhai.
I just miss him a lot today. Probably cos I go home myself today. He used to fetch me to and fro school. But now he don't. He does it without fail and there were times that he made me frustrated and there were times that he made me afraid when he zhai me. I could clearly remember those times, just like it was yesterday. He used to drive at 40 km/hr or 30 km/hr when he fetch me to school. I was almost running late then. I could remember clearly that was during Primary 1, he was driving his 1.5 red Toyota from his house in Old Jurong Road to bring me to school at the Jurong Canal there. Let me remind you, I was running late and guess what was his speed? It was 30km/hr to 40km/hr. I was panicking. As I was young back then, I do not really have a good grasp of spatial elements. I thought I was very far from the school and he was driving very slowly. I panicked and I urged him to drive faster. But he refused to. I started getting frustrated because I thought I was about to be late. But he NEVER allow me to be late. Always made me on time. When I reached school, another fear came by. He love to drop me by the school gate. This made me very scared. Because teacher will scold. Teacher always say cannot park outside school gate, or cannot turn into the school or the patio. But my grand daddy plainly love to do that. No matter how much I object, he will still drop me at places I do not want to be seen alighting. Because I don't want to be scolded or caught by the teacher. But my grand daddy always tell me, asked the teachers talk to him. In actual fact, I never got caught. But after much begging, he finally listen to me. haha. That was already primary 5 until primary 6 (he continued doing it thereafter). In secondary school, he still continued to send me to school without fail. But that period was an age of rebellious. I refused him. But the most I did was refusing him to fetch me home cos he still wanted to send me to school. FYI, my school is approximately 5 blocks away from my place. But he still wanted to send me there. I still remembered those cross-country days, I always wanted to show my independence by going there with my friends, but he refused. He is determined to fetch me back at least. There is one year my friends saw him. They thought that he is my dad. I was rather amused. How could this old man with a head of white hair be my father (my grand daddy does not have grey hair, it is WHITE). I clarified with my friends saying that he is my grand daddy. They were all amazed as they don't know there are grand daddies that could drive. Then came JC, there was never a day I went to school by myself. When I was in ACJ, he even came and fetch me from the school. But after I changed school, to show my independence (plus trying to enjoy the fun of taking bus), I decided to go home on my own. When I went university, his health start failing and he hardly drive long distance. I miss him driving me around. I miss those times I spend with him in the car. Now I could do is sit beside and not knowing that if he knows that I am around. Not knowing if he knows who I am. Not knowing if he could feel my heart towards him. But I am proud to be his girl. |
