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First Day of holiday ____________________________________________________ Actually my last paper was on 2 May. But I stayed in school because I am meeting my sup and trying to start Virtual Island project. However, I ended up disturbing Zhiqiang and Arpan in VI studio til 11pm. Haha. I felt a bit bad, cos they still have papers on wed and thurs respectively.
Today is my first day of holiday. Yeapiee!! And I decided to go library. What a cool place right after exams! haha. Joking. Anyway I went there to find some pictures for Virtual Island. And I managed to find some AMAZING photos. This morning, the sky was rather dark and seemed to be raining soon. After idling at home for a long time, I decided to walk to the library before the rain starts. Who knows, the rain had ended and sun came out. So I happily walked there. While walking, I noticed that I seemed to be enjoying the walk, the air, the trees, the surrounding. Many will say what is there to enjoy in this urban built-up. I don't know, but I am sure I am enjoying myself. This is a feeling that I never had walking down this stretch of road in broad daylight. Whenever I took this path, I should be rushing to 7-11 bus stop to catch a bus to school. I could be late for lecture in science (I dread the walk from AYE bus stop to Science faculty) or I could be rushing for examination. Both ways, I would be mentally tensed up and focusing on school work. But there is no such focus today. I felt very relaxed and enjoying the moment. I had just been too focus on my own work that I neglected things around me.It would be good if I could live everyday of my life this way. Just doing the things I like. Passion gives you Life. But in today's society, most people does not seemed to be able to do so. Everyone is in the RAT RACE. Everyone is competitive. But is such competitiveness necessary?? If you maintained your edge over the rest, will you be happy? Throughout history, there are many powerful man in the world whom are very competitive. They are outstanding, and we even had to study about them. But how many of them had a good ending. Let's look at Emperor Qin. He was the first emperor of unified China. He died of eating pills that could supposedly give him eternal life. Napolean might have been poison to death by arsenic. So much for being competitive. Or are you just substituting what the Maker has given to you as happiness with man-made happiness? What is the essential happiness? What is life? After so many years I still came back to the question of what is life? Ain't it ironic. Probably, life covers everything. Every different discipline, it's all life. Maybe we humans can never understand what is life, because we only understood a tiny bit of it. Just like how humans cannot perceive what is 4-dimension. Life is n-dimension. How are we going to understand it? Suddenly I realised I started thinking about these questions again. That something I had not do for a long time. Why is it all coming back to me? Could it be the Virtual Island project? I admit I had been using my design styles to do my virtual island and to prepare the interim report. It feel so unrestricted. I'm loving it.It just felt so different from engineering. Now I finally understand the difference in it all. I want to be where I can no longer be. It's a forbidden fruit theory I guess. Can I do the things I used to do? Can I get back the aplitude for making my passion feasible? I went library and did some admin stuff. Today is supposed to go clubbing, but I am home. Haizz. That's a story for another day. Probably it's a good thing that I din't go too. Cos I can save money to spend for the rest of the holidays. Muahaha. I am BORED!!! Dun feel like doing VI, FYP, UROP, WEBSITE DESIGning ($$$$ hehe)!!!! But these are the things I gotta accomplished this holiday.!!! AHhhh~~ |
