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Christmas ____________________________________________________ Actually I was to lazy to post regarding this Christmas and Birthday thingy cos too many stuff to write. I started staying out since 21st december. For every single day, I reached home after the sun rises. I continued this way of living til Christmas Day. 26, me and ber went to Vinc's house and became housewives for a day. 27, I went to see doctor and her medication ain't helpful. 28, rye and shan came over my place and cooked. I had been drained physically and decided that I would not club til I recovered eventhough I am SUPPOSED to go MOS tonight. hah.
Christmas eve, we went to Mark's place and exchange pressie and supposed to celebrate 3 people's birthday. And you know what, no one bought cake cos everyone thought someone would buy. haha. Actually no cake also good. Fattening. Anyway below are the fotos. The rest will be uploaded after sam pass them to me. At Mark's Place  Sam Opening Her Pressie  Sam Posing with Pressie In Church  Ms Singapore Liberty Guohua's Place  Vodka Sad day Yesterday ____________________________________________________ It was a rather sad day yesterday. Result was out. Like Rye says, no A this sem. Haizz. This sem is rather disappointing cos it was the worst result I got since I got into CE. But what to do. I guess my study method is wrong or my heart just refused to be tamed. Bad Bad heart.
I was shopping with Candice before I checked my results. Half an hour before the time of release was one of the most terrible period this year. The waiting was the killer. I can't help but to be anxious. I knew I gave my all, but the uncertainities were just overwhelming. Candice constantly reassured me and I was very glad that she was around me. It was 7 and I went to Topshop to check my results. There's another guy using so I decided to wait til the point that I could not take it anymore. I wanted to know the result immediately. I asked if I could use it for awhile to check my results and he agreed. I realised that there are people before me who used the terminal to check the results cos the page is stored in the history. haha. The first result I checked was my Urban grades. Fortunately I did not get D for it. But overall . . .haizzz... After Topshop, I do not have much mood to go shopping or mambo-ing already. In addition, I could not go for retail therapy, cos I was rather broke. On top of everything else, I had sore throat and could not eat chocolate!!! Then I was rather half-hearted in going Zouk, cos of my results. But XP came to town already to meet me to go Zouk. So I guessed I have to go. Joey came town to meet us too, but she was going Devils. Haven seen her for a long long long long long time. New gossips about her was heard only yesterday and she thought we knew it long time ago. Hah. Anyway we left Chinablack at 2330 cos we are girls who are broke and do not wish to buy drinks from Zouk. By the time we reach Zouk, Phuture was full house and Zouk had a long queue (to the bridge there). Initially, XP did not want to queue and wanted to come back later, but I saw the queue was moving (unlike MOS), then we just queued. We got in rather quickly compared to MOS. But when we got in, the place was packed. I did not really enjoyed myself cos the dancefloor is very packed in both Zouk and Phuture. The music was okay and I kept thinking of MOS. It was soooo much better. The whole night I was sian sian. The music in Zouk is rather different. Even though they are the same songs, but it just felt different. It had even reached a point that I could get bored in Mambo. So I suggested to go Phuture and I could go and disturb Drew. When we leave Zouk dancefloor, all the nice songs came on. I felt damned off. But I was more interested in disturbing Drew then. However, I could not find him when we went in. Then I became super duper sian. He texted me back saying meet me 20 minutes later. I was even more sian, cos I left the group to go and find him. I tried to go back and find the girls, fortunately I was found by XP. I walked to and fro Phuture many times to find people. 20 minutes later, I finally saw Drew but it was rather hard talking to him cos he was busy (there's lotsa little fights in Phuture. They are rather rowdy just like intolerant new age little ah bengs.) plus he was standing on a box, so it was very hard to talk to him. So I told him I'll talked to him after he knocked off, cos I am supposed to accompany candice til 6 to take the first train back. Plus I lost my earring in Phuture. I was sooo sad. On the way to town earlier in the day, I was thinking should I really wear this pair of earring and it is my current favourite. I have past experiences of losing my favourite earrings in clubs - in China black, Double 0. I had a feeling that I would loss it. But then I decided it would not be so coincidental all the time. Guess what... I really lost it. I tried to go back and find after the lights are on in both Zouk and Phuture. I could not find it! I was totally down. The pair of earrings was from a close friend, and he bought it from overseas, and it ain't cheap. I wont know how to answer to him. Zouk closed at 4 and we left. I was quite upset by the above stuffS and I kept scolding continously til my friends stopped me. The day was not totally bad. At least there are 2 good things that happened. Candice cleared her design. Yuppiee..!! Drew found my missing Earring. I was so so so happy that I jumped up with joy and gave him a hug. But I think he was rather embrassed cos he was working and he gotta keep and stern face too. I apologized later in case I got him into trouble.. haha. But still happy. THANK YOU DREW!!! *hugzz* again. I reached home at 6.30. Dunno if I'll get a lecture from my parents tonight or not. Haizz. I think I'll reached home after they slept... haha I LOVE MOS ____________________________________________________  I just came back from MOS. I decided to blog first before sleeping. It is an awesome place. Even though the opening's queue is insane, we still manage to go in FOR FREE!! hahaa!!! *happy*. The whole world seemed to be in MOS for the opening. There are celebrities, socialites, models, air-stewardess, Expats, Ang-Mohs (female specially). The people there are plainly pretty and handsome, much better than Zouk crowd. The guys are so cute and the girls are sooo soooo pretty!! (but then again, it might be due to the fact that it is opening) The music there is superb. They have few arenas - Main Arena (House and Trance), 54 (Retro), Smoove (R&B), Sky Lounge and The Tunnel and VIP Suits (Guest), and Pure (Chilling out Music). Let's talk about R&B first. It is very cool!! and nice. The music there could put Phuture's current music to shame. Phuture's music sucks big time now!!! MOS is good!!!! The DJ is spectacular!! Can you imagine scratching sound in R&B song? Total COOLNESS!! Retro is NOT MAMBO. It is really retro sound from the 70's. The decor in the room is nice. It is rather retrospective with all the flicking lights of orange and yellow. The dance floor has cubes of lights too, like Saturday Night Fever!! There is nothing much in Space Lounge and I did not go to their Techno arena, cos I was waiting for my stupid drinks in Retro there. Their counter service is like SHIT!! You cant order the drinks from the bartenders, you could only do it through the waitresses whom are never found. You could not order from the cashiers too, cos they are really the cashier girls. I dislike their counter service totally and I waited for a very very very very very long time for my drinks. The drinks are average Zouk price, quite okay. Their house DJ is good. I think the opening's night is their resident DJ. BTW all the resident DJ are flown in from UK. We kept shuffling between R&B and House, cos sometimes some songs just aint that nice. But before we leave, the House DJ played a very nice song. I really got very High!! Begging for one last song before leaving, but after the second chorus, I chose to leave cos they do not understand how come I can get so High. Actually it has been a very very very very long time music made me HIGH instead of alcohol. In MOS, I can definitely go without alcohol and get high because of the awesome music. I can't wait to go again. The wait is definitely worth it!! MOS definitely put ZOUK to shame!!! haha. Note: Entrance: $30/male for upstairs, $24/male for downstairs, Free/ female Gai Gai ____________________________________________________ Today went out gai gai with Ber and Huifang. So happy!! Finally went gai gai. Last night when I was talking to vinc, I suddenly realised the last time I went shopping is shopping for TAX's bday gift and that day was rather rush too. That was soo long ago. But anyway today went shopping, but never really shop in Isetan.
Our initial plan was to go MANGO sale, then go FCUK sale. So we meet at 11am at Shaw Center Mango. I think I reached ard 11.06am and the place is packed already. According to Ber, they opened at 10 instead of 11. We walked ard and I found a sweater which my mummy might like. But in the end, I did not buy it. Though it was nice, its just too expensive. It was that kind which is half the length. So it's not really worth it, plus she might be unhappy that I spend so much. I found a nice top that I like. And I took the smallest available there (which was Large). Later on I realised that I could not wear at all, cos it's plainly too big. I also tried a lot of jeans cos ber kept throwing at me when she saw my size. I think this is very nice of her. ;) .. All the jeans do not suit me except for one which I took the size wrongly. I tried to find again, to get my size but can't. Ber got quite number of items from there. Then we went Isetan and we found MANGO again. hah. I went to search for the top that I wanted and Ber manage to find it for me and Jeans I just took a replacement design which I think will become part of my school uniform next sem. Then I forgot to pay by my voucher!! ahh...!! I have been wanting to use to vouchers. . haha. . Think I've to leave it to next time since there is no timeline. haha. I have never go shopping with the 2 girls before and this first time is rather interesting. Ber shared with me her secret of how to increase CG. haha. Plus she mentioned that a gym instructor ever told her friend that a person with small body will never remove her tummy. So, there is no way of me getting a flat stomach.. haizz. While Huifang has a different style of dressing up. I like today's shopping trip or I am plain deprived previously. Hah. There are so many things to buy and not enough money!! Today I was looking at the clothes and I really don't know how to mix and match. I think I have been out of the scene for too long. Hope next sem wouldn't be that bad. ;) Oh yah... I saw the UGLIEST nose I ever seen on a girl. You guys know how the Buffalo Demon's ( Nu Mo Wang) nose looks like? She has it! I was so shocked. I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me, or she got big mole beneath her nose. But No, it was the shadow!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEE!!! Bottle that will never be full ____________________________________________________ Why does she always want me to empatize with her, to know how she feels? Why wouldn't she ever try understanding how I feel?
I am just an imperfect human. An imperfect human that has only a certain capacity. And yet, she's always trying to fill it to the brim. How I wished I could be a bottle that would never be completely filled by her. At least, there wouldn't be so much unhappiness. But I can't. I admit that we really has lack of emotional communication. Or usually its a one-way communication. She's active and I am passive. This gives a good speaker and a good listener. I couldn't break out of my mould. So what if I become active in telling her how I feel, it might not be productive too. She would give me all sorts of excuses and justification that my feelings are to be suppressed as they cannot be achieved. After that, what am I to do? And what's the point to saying so much? I may as well act as a bottle that will never be full. . . and lessen her burden. . . underlined: on the assumption that she really cares Priority ____________________________________________________ They always say get your priorities right. And I am starting to wonder are my priorities right.
After all I have done for them, she still doubted me. What can I do? For everything that I do, specially those big issues stuff, I do think for them before making decision. Now she is demanding that I should place myself in their shoes and think how could they feel. She says I am evil. This really hurt me a lot. I always thought for them, they are always my priorities. But they never see it! Even if I am sick, I'll still run errands for them. They didn't bother. I gave up my passion for her. She couldn't care less. What's the point of me doing all these and they still blame me for not thinking for them. Today, I did something stupid. I had a secret slipped out of my mouth. I never intended to tell them. Never Ever til Eternity. But I did. A stupid mistake. She blame me once again. For not being considerate. But from my perspective, I am being considerate, that's why I never told her. What's the point? Are my priorities right? Someone ever told me it ain't. I used to reject the person's theory, thinking that it is too individualist, too heartless. Now I am no longer sure. My heart's in pain. What is the best medicine? Saturday, 10 December, 2005 ____________________________________________________ This is such a memorable day. My brother actually asked me out!!!! hahaa. Usually he goes out with his friends, no matter how I tried to tag along, he would never bring me. But Saturday, 10 December, 2005, he actually asked me to accompany him somewhere. This is such a landmark (taken from Pastor B, but I always thought it shld be milestone instead of landmark).
He asked me to accompany him to test drive. We went to Mitsubishi Motors and Borneo Motors, cos he wants to test Lancer and Vios. Lancer is spacious, but Vios is powerful. But at the end of the day, he's the one that makes the decision and not me. hah. So up to him. In the meantime, I would be a happy passenger until I get my license (which is NOT soon). haha. After test driving the 2 cars, I went to church for Dah Ching's baptism. And since he's getting married next week, its just nice I guess. Hah. Never expected him to be the first to get married, but well.... hah. While they are going through the baptism, I think I saw someone familiar. He's not tall, rather dark and familiar. Ahhh... he's Carolyn's ex-bf, Paul. I had a shocked, cos I did not expect to see someone familiar during the baptism. Plus I never see him in church too. Anyhow, to confirm that he is Paul, I check the names of people who are baptizing that day. He's really Paul!! I am just surprise. Nuthing else to add, cos he's no longer carolyn's bf. I was shocked by another guy too. Sometimes he's the drummer for our service. He looks rather cute. He has those boyish look, tall, spikey hair. Just Cuuutee!! But I found out that he is actually Sabrina's brother. I thought Sabrina has sister only. Her brother is ssooo cute!! And thank goodness, her brother looks very different from the sisters. Hah. Well, he's a double shocker. Cos he's just 16. SIXTEEN!!! So young!!! I always thought he's 18 or 19 or J2 per se. But he's just 16 !!!! So sad.. too young for me.. haha... He's a cute lil drummer boy. hah. Supposed to go shopping with Hua-gu, XL and xp. But in the end, we went to "chill out". The girls said they haven been to MS for a long long time plus they are into 0-bar recently (I wonder why?), so we went there to CHILL. At the end of the night, that place is not only not CHILLING but hot like an oven. Oh, btw, I think I saw Ms Orgasmic there, dancing with her indian friends. What a place right? But that place really got a lot of Indians, dunno why. . Today, I realised that my camera is spoilt. Dunno how. But one thing for sure is that I brought it into 0-bar. Maybe the heat killed my camera. :( camera comparison ____________________________________________________ The other day I was looking at the Sentosa photos taken by me and ber. Then I realised the COLOR difference is rather huge. Now I think HP camera's color is more vibrant than Canon Ixus.
See the difference:
Then I went to Raffles Marina and compare another camera with mine. (dunno what brand). See the difference:
on a night like this ____________________________________________________ thunder growled across the sky
lightning flicked into my room like a spoiling bulb rain pattered on my window cold wind gushed into my room this provided a good environment for me to slip into my quilt and feel secured before falling asleep but I could not. emotions kept falling to an endless depths imagination started to run wild images from the dream of previous night kept coming back to me making me feel even worse a dream of both beauty and ugliness a night of fantasy and terror a signature of love and jealousy a moment of enjoyment and disappointment how I wished I could be the protagonist, but I was just the spectator how I wished both of us never met, but we even build a friendship how I wished somethings were forever left unsaid, but they were let loose how I wished somethings were never done, to save the friendship rain did not bother about my feeling continued dragging my mood down time did not care to give a second chance NEVER, regardless of the person will I do it differently if I was given another chance? I am not sure . . . sentosa ____________________________________________________  I went to sentosa yesterday. The weather is perfect for a day at the beach. There was no rain. Which, in fact, was quite surprising, because for the past few times that I went, it always rained and really dampened my mood. How could a day on a beach be accompanied by rain. Must feel the sun scorching on the skin then shiok. haha. We went KM8. Surprisingly, there is more dogs than humans. Those owners brought their dogs for a swim in the sea. And there's only a few people sunbathing. We are the only ones who played volleyball and we had the whole court to ourselves. haha. Haven played in courts for a very long long time. Fortunately, still can serve across the net. Heard from TAX that the court is a men's court. I still like playing in courts regardless men's court or women's court. But this was the first time I played 2 on 2 in a court. It is supposed to be very taxing on energy level, but as usual, I am rather immobile. I depended mainly on my partner, TAX. Thank you!! hah.  After a while, we started nuahing. haha. It's great to nuah on the beach. It will soon be my new hideout. mahahaa. Imagine reading a book under the shades with sea breeze blowing at you. COOOLLL! (fyi: I am not supposed to get dark now, because of my new haircut.. it only looks better if I have the porcelain doll face. and for those lame people, dun ask me to be a afro-american porcelain doll.) We kept playing sand. and nuahing and playing with sand and nuahing. I think I am the only one who kept playing with sand. haha. Burying Vinc feet, burying TAX leg. haha. Ber kept taking photos. That gave the guys no chance to throw her into the water. :)    I was quite amazed that someone brought cards to the beach. We ordered a jug of lime cordial soda and started playing bridge. haha. But KM8 cannot play cards, they have no license for it. So we just go to the beach to play.haha. This is one of the few times that I leave early and never go into the water. haha. Maybe dun have the hyperactively insane quin and shirlyn with me, that's why. We left sentosa and went Habourfront. Bought lotsa chocolate. Ber and Me spend about 20 bucks in total. But its a cold storage sale. Quite cheap. Ber taught me how to choose good dark chocolate also. :). So I bought 2 for mummy and 1 strawberry chocolate for myself. After that we went to play mj in Vinc house. His room got AIR-CON !!! Its no longer stuffy. But his room.... mmmm..... notes from the previous battled filled his whole floor area. A bit sad. Cos I feel my effort is wasted... haha. We played one round - started at 8pm ended at 1am. Then I walked home from his place. BECAUSE I want it ... okay? But also thanks vinc. |
