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Bid if you want to be featured in ad ____________________________________________________ This is a gimmick placed by Tangs on ebay.
The winning bidder will walk away with a 3-Day photoshoot and a 2-Night stay at Club Med Cherating Beach... Ain't this weird. Shouldn't you be paid for appearing for photo-shoot. Now you gotta pay them to let you appear in their photoshoot. This is a great way for them to save money if this aint for charity purposes. This also implies that anyone can be a model. ANYONE! Click here to link to their ebay poster. 2:12 ____________________________________________________ Its 2:12, and I ain't sleeping yet. Just dun feel sleepy at all and dun feel like sleeping. Dun feel like doing flash too.
I ended up drawing. This is the first time I use mouse to draw. My intention is to draw a red monster; here it is!  Red MonsterWell, never expect it to turn out like a bug. Oh well. . . Btw, I tend to draw better when I am not feeling that spectacular. I wonder why. Untitled ____________________________________________________ Over the past few days, I realised how ALONE I could be.
It does not mean that I have not been going out with my wonderful friends. I went out with them, spend lotsa time with them. But I still felt alone emotionally. This feeling is probably heighten by the release of results. I never felt so alone in my whole life. Probably I did, but that was so long ago. I felt that I have to face all the problems in the world myself. There was no one there for me. I know in my heart there are friends who are willing to share this burden with me. But I am unwilling to share it. Because I believe that it is MY problem and not theirs. There are decision to be made in life that you just have to do it yourself. There are things in life that you just have to face it yourself. I've learnt to be independent since young. I am force to do it. I never wanted to be independent. I love to dependent on my family, but they are never there. I had no choice to be independent. They never knew how I think, how I feel. I've grown not to tell them anything. I did not know much about them. Sometimes I tried to go out with them on Sunday, but I still do not know much. They expected me to be there, whenever they want. When I want, are they there? I feel so very much like a pet in the family. At least, the family would still play with their pet, they don't even care about me now. There's so much I want to tell them, but unable to. Is this failure of a typical Singaporean Chinese family? Or is it the generation gap and cultural gap between me and them? I told them how much I needed them since ages ago. But they ignore me. Do I have a choice? I learnt to be independent. I tried not to be dependent on friends too. But I always tries to be there for friends, because I knew the importance of it. Most of the time, I do not tell my friends what are the things that affect me the most. 1) I usually forget it soon enough 2) I think it does not concern them 3) Their point of view is of a different level from mine 4) Telling them would not be constructive too There are times that I just needed a hug. Just the other day, when I am feeling extremely alone, overburden by the stress of the release of results, I knew I just need someone to give me a tight hug. The same day, I went out with a friend. I just could not tell my friend "Could you please give me a hug and don't let go for around 5 mins. I need it. I am very scared." They never did came out of my mouth. I did not want to scare my friend off too. I had urges to tell my friend that, but I never did. I guess I am learning to be independent once again. Am I hurting myself to be independent emotionally? Is it necessary to be independent? Do I have a choice? Am I ALONE? Diva Dance ____________________________________________________ This song is well-liked by me and a few of my other friends. The transistion between classical to techno is very cool. I used to think that is song was penned by Eric Serra who was the main director of 5th Element's music. I wanted to find out who is the singer for the song in the movie.
Guess what I found out today! The Diva Dance opera performance used music from Lucia di Lammermoor Part Two, Act Two, N. 14 Scena ed aria, "O giusto cielo!" and was voiced by Inva Mula-Tchako. However, Plavalaguna was acted by French actress Maïwenn Le Besco. As Plavalaguna is an alien, the music was scored with some vocalisations that are rumoured to be physically impossible, however in the documentary on the Special Edition version of the film it is stated that Inva Mula-Tchako's voice wasn't digitally altered. I used to think that the actress alien in the show would sing the song, in order to save money. Guess I was wrong again. Hah. Jabberwocky ____________________________________________________  `Twas brillig, and the slithy toves Did gyre and gimble in the wabe: All mimsy were the borogoves, And the mome raths outgrabe. "Beware the Jabberwock, my son! The jaws that bite, the claws that catch! Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun The frumious Bandersnatch!" He took his vorpal sword in hand: Long time the manxome foe he sought -- So rested he by the Tumtum tree, And stood awhile in thought. And, as in uffish thought he stood, The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame, Came whiffling through the tulgey wood, And burbled as it came! One, two! One, two! And through and through The vorpal blade went snicker-snack! He left it dead, and with its head He went galumphing back. "And, has thou slain the Jabberwock? Come to my arms, my beamish boy! O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!' He chortled in his joy. `Twas brillig, and the slithy toves Did gyre and gimble in the wabe; All mimsy were the borogoves, And the mome raths outgrabe. Lewis Carroll (from Through the Looking-Glass and What Alice Found There, 1872) = = = = = = = = = = = This is what I learn in EL1101. But I didn't know that Jabberwocky is a character created by Lewis Carroll. I thought it was a poem only. Leonardo's code or is it Dan Brown's code . . . ____________________________________________________ I went to watch Da Vinci code today, eventhough it's supposed to be opened tommorrow. Anyway I did not expect myself to watch it so soon, but fate just draws me to it. What to do?
I'm out having dinner with vinc today. Cos I am just too full, we ended up walking around. But then again, I ate B&J in the end. FAT FAT FAT!!!! I am glad that I got to try Chunky Monkey and Black Raspberry flavour. Then we continued walking. Vinc suggested watching movie. There's 5 movies in Suntec 1) Poseidon : Not interested, dun think it's nice. 2) MI:3 : Third sequal. I don't think it'll be anything compared to the first, dun think it'll be as good as the first 3) The Wild : Dun think it'll be a nice cartoon. Should be the same old stuff 4)When a Stranger calls : What show is this? Can't even find the poster. 5)Election 2 : What show is this? Can't even find the poster. We din watch and went B&J instead. Then we went marina square walk walk. We went to the cinema and check the shows again. Surprisingly, there's only 2 movies, MI:3 and Poseidon. We saw a long queue from the ticketing booth, wondering what was there. So we walked in to check if there's really only 2 movies. It's true. But those people in the queue already had tixs. So we were looking around and we saw Ms Eng. She is in the bowling alley. It is her company's function. She's no longer with NTUC Income. Vinc suggested that we call her, but his fone is flat, and I dun have Ms Eng's number. Vinc tried to swtich it on and retrieve the number. But I was too slow, the fone went dead before I can start keying in the digits. Vinc claimed that he could remember the number. So we dialed the number he remember, but the person on the other line says there's no such person. We thought Ms Eng changed number, so we waited outside. Just before Ms Eng came out, 4 girls approached us and passed us the Da Vinci Code's movie sneak preview tickets because they had extras. So I just took the tixs because they seemed to be rushing in. The girls told us its free. HOhoho. However, it's free seating. That explains the long queue. Ms Eng came out, we approached her and realised that Vinc remembered the number wrongly. Muhahaa. Oops. Let's invite her the next time we have outing!! Back to Da Vinci, we went in and sat and the first 3rd row. Probably Vinc is feeling all the aches now. He's tall and longggg remember. Hah. The show is alright. I am amazed by Dan Brown's linkages, but some of them is really absurb.... I hope this will not cause people to faulter. Everything I learnt about Leonardo Da Vinci from school is in the movie, fibonacci number, Vitruvian man, etc. Linking science, to mathematics, to arts, to history, to religion. Which also reminds me of the Holy Roman War I studied in PS1101. Haha. I'm quite surprise he did not mentione about Spear of Longinus. Guess it is a story for another time. Heh. It also reminds us that obsession will cause you to do stupid things too, like the guy who flicted pain on himself. Maybe I should start reading the Dan Brown book which is collecting dust on my cupboard. Hah. Candice right?? ;p JohnTravolta'sHome ____________________________________________________ I have been watching Oprah recently. I think I am beginning to behave like those gaga women in America who are so crazy about her. haha. Anyway today's episode is on John Travolta. So happened that when I started watching, they began to talked about his home.
 His home is featured in Architectural digest (Btw, I think this is a very old episode). He has always been an aviation enthusiast and has spent his earnings on flying from the start. With the success of his career he has been able to indulge his passion for flying. He has moved to a house within the Jumbolair Aviation Estates community. At the Jumbolair Estates he built with his wife Kelly Preston a house styled like a 1950's airport terminal, that was featured in an issue of Architectural Digest. To complete the part he has a remarkable fleet of aircraft that include: * Gulfstream II Luxury Jet * DC3 Dakota Airliner * Lockheed Constellation * 1964 Boeing 707-138B John Travolta designed his home so he can see his fleet of jets from every window. He could park his planes in his house. There's even full-scale runway in his back garden. Insanely, he also installed arrival and departure boards inside his mansion as well as an airport lounge.  For full article and more pictures, please click here. Grow Again ____________________________________________________ Haha. It's gonna be a short post. Just wanna tell everyone that I found another GROW game. This one is very simple, with 6 elements only. It also have Christmas feeling. Even though it ain't christmas yet, its raining now (isn't it a great substitution for tropical region.. hohoho).
Introducing : Grow Ornament  Games ____________________________________________________ I spent the whole day playing game instead of doing work. They are very fun, and I can't stop playing.
The first one which I'll like to introduce is the GROWTH series.
These games are very interesting. You could input any element at any step, and it'll give you different results. There's is only one sequence that could make all the levels of the elements maximum. I took quite a while to figure all three of them. The result of the element being "fully grown" is super nice. My favourite result is the cube one. Very nice!! The second one I'll like to introduce is The Doors. It is something like Crimson room and Viridian Room. And a new one which I am playing now, White Chamber. I just found another Blue Chamber, haha. But I think the graphics in The Doors is nicer. The ending is quite "duh!!", but still... the graphics and music is better than the original (Crimson Room). See, this is what I've been doing today. I should be doing work!! I guess it's the Vesak Day Holiday's influence. Hah. Sleepless Nights ____________________________________________________ It's 10 May 2006, 1:57 am. I am not sleeping yet. It's not because I have too much things to do. After all, it's holiday now.
I just couldn't sleep. My mind is very active. I guess passion bring adrenaline rush to both my body and brain. I had been sleeping very little these few days. I just could not stop thinking about my VI. This totally reminded me those days when I dun mind not sleeping for the sake of projects. Well, I just completed the first portion of my flash. There's still more to be done. Maybe later in the day, I shall go and bug adrian again. Hahah. Poor guy, just came back from paternal leave and there's a girl bugging him non-stop on things that he might not even know how to do (Earlier in the day, I talked to him, he mentioned that he just knew a bit about flash. And what I requested from him aint possible to be done on flash alone.) = = = = = = = = = Brain refused to rest. I tried sleeping just now, but I kept thinking about my flash and VI and seminar reports. So I thought "If I can't sleep, may as well do some constructive stuff". So here I am writing blog and starting on my seminar report again. Hah. First Day of holiday ____________________________________________________ Actually my last paper was on 2 May. But I stayed in school because I am meeting my sup and trying to start Virtual Island project. However, I ended up disturbing Zhiqiang and Arpan in VI studio til 11pm. Haha. I felt a bit bad, cos they still have papers on wed and thurs respectively.
Today is my first day of holiday. Yeapiee!! And I decided to go library. What a cool place right after exams! haha. Joking. Anyway I went there to find some pictures for Virtual Island. And I managed to find some AMAZING photos. This morning, the sky was rather dark and seemed to be raining soon. After idling at home for a long time, I decided to walk to the library before the rain starts. Who knows, the rain had ended and sun came out. So I happily walked there. While walking, I noticed that I seemed to be enjoying the walk, the air, the trees, the surrounding. Many will say what is there to enjoy in this urban built-up. I don't know, but I am sure I am enjoying myself. This is a feeling that I never had walking down this stretch of road in broad daylight. Whenever I took this path, I should be rushing to 7-11 bus stop to catch a bus to school. I could be late for lecture in science (I dread the walk from AYE bus stop to Science faculty) or I could be rushing for examination. Both ways, I would be mentally tensed up and focusing on school work. But there is no such focus today. I felt very relaxed and enjoying the moment. I had just been too focus on my own work that I neglected things around me.It would be good if I could live everyday of my life this way. Just doing the things I like. Passion gives you Life. But in today's society, most people does not seemed to be able to do so. Everyone is in the RAT RACE. Everyone is competitive. But is such competitiveness necessary?? If you maintained your edge over the rest, will you be happy? Throughout history, there are many powerful man in the world whom are very competitive. They are outstanding, and we even had to study about them. But how many of them had a good ending. Let's look at Emperor Qin. He was the first emperor of unified China. He died of eating pills that could supposedly give him eternal life. Napolean might have been poison to death by arsenic. So much for being competitive. Or are you just substituting what the Maker has given to you as happiness with man-made happiness? What is the essential happiness? What is life? After so many years I still came back to the question of what is life? Ain't it ironic. Probably, life covers everything. Every different discipline, it's all life. Maybe we humans can never understand what is life, because we only understood a tiny bit of it. Just like how humans cannot perceive what is 4-dimension. Life is n-dimension. How are we going to understand it? Suddenly I realised I started thinking about these questions again. That something I had not do for a long time. Why is it all coming back to me? Could it be the Virtual Island project? I admit I had been using my design styles to do my virtual island and to prepare the interim report. It feel so unrestricted. I'm loving it.It just felt so different from engineering. Now I finally understand the difference in it all. I want to be where I can no longer be. It's a forbidden fruit theory I guess. Can I do the things I used to do? Can I get back the aplitude for making my passion feasible? I went library and did some admin stuff. Today is supposed to go clubbing, but I am home. Haizz. That's a story for another day. Probably it's a good thing that I din't go too. Cos I can save money to spend for the rest of the holidays. Muahaha. I am BORED!!! Dun feel like doing VI, FYP, UROP, WEBSITE DESIGning ($$$$ hehe)!!!! But these are the things I gotta accomplished this holiday.!!! AHhhh~~ Labour Day ____________________________________________________ MAY DAY is Labour Day.
Today I went to bank for cash deposit and the atm also got off. None of the atms at the Bukit Batok branch can work. What a Labour Day. |
